Fall Apart (Slideshow with Lyrics)

When I went out to pick up Peyton this afternoon from Fellowship of Christian Athletes day camp, this song came on and it was the first time I heard it. God absolutely knew what He was thinking when he put it in my path today.

Today has been a hard day. One of those when you don't understand why God is adding more to your plate when you don't even think you have enough of a balance of what he has already given. I feel like it's too soon for my heart to be dealing with "hard" issues. I'm still struggling daily with picking up the pieces from so many losses as it is.

My husband and I often talk about how it seems that when we are on the edge of a spiritual breakthrough, we get slammed. It never fails that something "big" goes wrong when we start a prayer challenge, a Bible reading challenge, or take a big step out in faith. Today is that day. Though there are some AMAZING blessings being poured out today, our hearts are also breaking over things that I'm just not at liberty to discuss openly at this point. I'm thankful beyond words for those blessings, but my heart is just heavy over other things. One specific blessing is just warming my heart & I can't wait to share that joy!

Then, just as I'm driving down the road already trying to hold tears back and giving everything I have to not have a breakdown.... I hear this song and it BREAKS me. However, it breaks me in the way of God. It reminds me of so much that God needs me to remember. It's when my whole world is falling apart that I do feel God's presence the most. The "outside" world gets stripped away and my focus becomes solely on Him. When I do come to the end of me, when I'm absolutely at the bottom with nothing left to give, I find that is where I find Him the most. When I do fall apart, it's when I find Him right there with me. Right where He has been all along. I do just want to know Him more and more and sometimes it IS pain that brings that. It is UNCERTAINTY that brings about authentic faith. Praising Him in the easier times is well....easy. It's continuing to praise him authentically during the difficult times that shows the maturity of our faith. I am falling apart right now and I'm struggling, but yet in those struggles I will find the greatest peace that only God can provide.
FALL APART Lyrics


Josh Wilson



Why in the world did I think I could

Only get to know You when my life was good?

When everything just falls in place

The easiest thing is to give You praise



Now it all seems upside down



‘Cause my whole world is caving in

But I feel You now more than I did then

How can I come to the end of me

And somehow still have all I need

God, I want to know You more

Maybe this is how it starts

I find You when I fall apart



Blessed are the ones who understand

We got nothing to bring but empty hands, yeah

Nothing to hide and nothing to prove, yeah

Our heartbreak brings us back to You, oh



And it all seems upside down



‘Cause my whole world is caving in

But I feel You now more than I did then

How can I come to the end of me

And somehow still have all I need

God, I want to know You more

Maybe this is how it starts

I find You when I fall apart



God, I want to know You more

Maybe this is how it starts

I find You when I fall apart, yeah



I don’t know how long this will last

I’m praying for the pain to pass

But maybe this is the best thing

That has ever happened to me



‘Cause my whole world is caving in

But I feel You now more than I did then

How can I come to the end of me

And somehow still have all I need

God, I want to know You more

Maybe this is how it starts

I find You when I fall apart

I fall apart