I seem to have covered the main bases, but failed at some of the little details. I managed to keep the house presentable (with lots of help from Kevin and Adriana), but today I really noticed "piles" adding up in corners and it began to really get me down. Books are overtaking every corner of OUR bedroom----our haven from reality. MUST get a grip on that NOW! When Kev and I close the door at night, it is time to shut off the rest of the world and focus on each other. A bit hard to do that when stacks of school supplies, books, bills, and "reality" are lurking around! I also found myself standing in the kitchen this morning cooking breakfast to discover AFTER the milk was completely heated that we didn't have a grain of sugar to finish making cream of wheat (my boys ABSOLUTE favorite----I was trying to earn brownie points and start the day with extra smiles!). Instead of "hero" status, I got the "mom you messed up" speech. That milk became hot chocolate since I couldn't think of anything else to do with it and breakfast became straight from the can biscuits. FAIL! Yet, everyone survived. No one starved. Fortunately, my sweet friend showed up with a bag of sugar when she picked up her little one. Her sweet gesture might just put me back in the running tomorrow for "brownie points"----just maybe! It has been one after another on the little "fails"....and keeping my heart in check in the process has been tough.
The point is: I can't do it all. My perfectionism has to be tossed away. I don't earn my way to heaven by acts of service. I don't lose the love of God by not getting everything right. My husband doesn't love me less if he has to dig through a basket of socks because they didn't get matched up. My children don't love me less if they have to eat "fake" biscuits instead of something they like better. THOSE are demands I put on myself. Demands that I've noticed other friends putting on themselves as well. I say this: it's time to STOP putting so much darn pressure on ourselves to live "perfectly". GRACE. Grace!!!!
Something else that is extremely important is defining priorities. After you define the priorities, you HAVE to put your focus on them. Otherwise, they don't remain your priority.
I saw that in FULL visibility this week. Our schedules are
Perfectionism. Throw it out the window and embrace grace. Priorities: stick with them. Make sure that you follow through! They are worth it.
By the way----hopefully this post will encourage someone. Hopefully it will inspire me on another day when I've lost track of my priorities or when I've forgotten the power of grace and perfectionism has overtaken. I'm sure it won't take long to need to reread these words myself. Maybe even by tomorrow or even later tonight. :)